Try

 I try.. Try not to be jeleous. Try not to think of the possibilities. I've tried. But I can't. The feelings just kept going to me. Maybe I shoud try harder. Maybe I just have to stop. But I promise myself to wait for him. So, I will wait.. Even for forever. I just ave to. I'm not forcing myself. I just challenge myself.

Tears

   Well, tears are my best friends now. Every single night, I'll cry for somethig stupid. Maybe, it's not that stupid. I cry because I was afraid. Afraid of losing him. Afraid of what's going to happen in the future. Afraid of his feelings after the next year. Afraid of everything about him. I love him so much. But I think his right. We shouldn't think about this right now. Maybe it's best if i just ry. Try to not think of him. I know it's hard but I have to try, right ?

Raya

Other people are enjoying their Raya but me?  Huh. I've got to study for the upcoming exam. Haiyaaa. I'm so tired somehow. Well. Its a sacrafice. I think. Hmmm~

Missing them. :')

Gonna miss them so much..

The truth

Well. I was shocked when someone told me that he always ask about me. I know he hated me. But can he just forget about me. I know it's hard but he has to try right.? I can't force him to forget me. I know it's weird but he has to try somehow. I know it's me who hurt him and leave him just like that. I know that I'm cruel. I just can't hold myself from falling to someone else at the same time. It's just, this is me. Just move on, okay?  I know it's hard, but he have to try.

New Love

Well, people's change everyday. so does their heart. It's same goes to me. I've got transfer to MRSM Taiping and  the new environment change me little by little. Myn heart also follows changes. I don't know whether this relationship is going to be last long or not. But I'll try to keep this relationship. I don't want to break any hearts anymore. Seriously. I know how it's feel when I break someone hearts. It HURTS. 

I knew him since Form 4 of course. He's the same class as me. The President kot. Firstly, I only admire him since last year but that change this year. It started during Sejarah's presantation. We have to perform a play and he is in my group. I was happy plus excited. Orang yang kita minat satu group dengan kita kot. Siapa je yang tak suka. Then, dia tak dapat nak join sebab kena pergi memanah. So, lepas presantation ada cuti for Chinese New Year. After cuti sekolah tu, he text me. 

He ask me about the play. Then, we started to go further and further. My feeling towards SFS was fading away. The feelings towards him was growing stronger. then, I've made a decision to leave SFS and accept him. Now, my feelings towards him becomes stronger everyday. I've never felt so happy in my life. Seriously. 

New Life

Haiyaaa. So, many spider web laa.. It's been a year i guess since I  last updated my blog. So, many stories to share. Yeah. New love life. New friends. New enviroment. And many more. Last year is a pain for me. I have to struggle in a new enviroment. From MRSM Pasir Salak to MRSM Taiping. Fuhh. It's a disaster. I guess.. but I also found a new friends and right now, I really enjoy staying at Taiping. hee~ 

The new me. This pic was taken at Taiping during UNGA