Its been a while~

Its been a while. And tak sangka Im already 18 this year. Many things happened along the journey. I stumbled and fall but then I got back up with a smiling face. I almost give up with my life but I have my families and the people around me to support me. I always thought that Im all alone on this planet but that's not true at all.
This 1st of July, Im of to KPM Ayer Molek, Melaka. Fuhh~~ So far away. Im going to start everything all over again. This time Im going to focus what I want to achieve. I don't want the same things happened twice again. I just can't. Im going to reach my future and nothing can stop me. Hoho.

ps : gambar yang tak ada kena mengena. Hoho.

FAKE

Faking to be happy. Faking that you don`t even mind about him. Yeah!  I can do that. On the outside I look like that I don't even mind about him. On the outside, I try to be the girl that can face anything. Yeah!  I really can fake it all on the outside. People doesn't care. They just don't care. For a minute they look like they care. But then, if we show that we're okay. They just forget about what happen. They doesn't know what I kept inside. All the pain. All the tears that I try to hide. 

On the inside, I'm just a girl who have a fragile heart. I keep it all the inside. But now, I want to express my feelings in this post. I feel sick of myself. I always said to myself, "Raf, he didn't care about you. So, why do you have to care about him? "  I mean like, he doesn't know about the things that I hide to myself. If only he would know. But I rather just kept it. Just to myself.......